alright i'm pissed off right now

i feel like so many people hate me and i didn't mean for it to happen either

nieterts brother called me disgusting and he thinks i'm in love with him when i don't even know who he is.

it was also hard when i went to olivia's party and i was pretty much the only single girl there. and its worse when the guy you like is a year older and you haven't even talked to him and i have no idea what he even thinks of me

he said one thing about me exact words too cause i heard it

"aww short emo"

that was it.

my stomach hurts like hell
so does my throat

and its bad when your best friend can easily get a boyfriend but shes making the guy make it up to her or something and its just like what if you were single and yo udont' knwo of anyone you like that likes you more than a friend and she just acts like no matter what he will still be there even if she goes out with anyother guy and then all of a sudden says she loves him he would still be there

its confusing i guess

and i've realized i don't like telling people my dad died because i dont' want them the feel bad for me i don't want them to keep saying their sorry i dont' want them to think i'm depressed about it. yea i wish i did have a dad but i don't so i have to deal with it and i don't want any pity from anyone.
i just don't like telling people about it whenever people ask.

whatever i already know the only people who will comment this will be hayley and thats probably it but whatever.